I want to heal. I want to be free.
I ask for these things but what do they mean?
How does one heal? How does one grow?
When emotions trap you in the undertow.
Outcast, aside, left all alone
These are the fears that haunt my home
Dysregulation of emotions, out of control
Striving to achieve, I miss the goal.
How is it that I can’t seem
To do what’s right or best for me
I envision a life I want to lead
Feeling overwhelmed, I smoke more weed.
I feel alive, it all makes sense
Until I come down, back to my mess
Numbing the pain is all I know
Will I ever learn to let it go?
Stuck in the cycle, feeling weak
Mind is spinning but I can’t speak
Feeling worthless, empty inside
Anger and rage intensified.
I want to heal. I want to be free
No longer blurring my reality
Perspectives can shift, change and align
Is what I am told when I call the hotline.
Kara Muller is a poet and lyricist who recently relocated to Seattle from sunny California. Although she misses the coast, she says the rainy weather sets the perfect tone for writing. Her poetry and songs are an expression of emotions that we oftentimes have a hard time articulating. Kara is an advocate of self-healing and encourages others to uncover and work through their trauma in order to live their best life. In her spare time, you can find her walking in nature, creating art, and on the hunt for the best gluten-free and vegan bakery.