That Kind of Person | Victoria K. Clay

Does it make me feel better

being the peaceful person?

 

The forward person?

The person that doesn’t

need anything to do or

say something in return

kind of person?

 

I’ve always strived to be

that person. It didn’t matter

what kind of person

that other person would be.

I forgave

easier.

I forgot

quicker.

I didn’t have to think

twice. It made me feel

better. Lighter. Made

feelings easier. Then -

 

I did it again. For them.

For someone else.

I kept doing it, and it felt

fine, but every time I

paid the price because

what happened when I

was that person?

 

When I

needed to be forgiven

forgot

thought of once instead of twice.

When I needed nice?

 

When no one

else cared to give what I

gave.

At least try.

No.

I don’t expect

efforts

or

lies

or

for me to wonder

why

I’m not the kind of girl

worth trying for.

I’m just that kind of person

everyone seems to

ignore.

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Victoria K. Clay was born and raised in Santa Fe, New Mexico (a.k.a The City Different, The Land of Enchantment). After graduating from Santa Fe high, she received her BFA (18’) in creative writing from The Institute of American Indian Arts (IAIA). She was then accepted into IAIA’s MFA program for creative writing, which she completed in the spring of 2020. She's currently pursuing a career in story-telling through film.