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A lost love - Alexandra Beitia

You’re a flicker

In my mind.

A spark that

Never extinguishes.

A hopeless hope,

An ignorant wish,

A yearning desperation

That I want to exterminate.

Why can’t I let you go?

You wanted my body.

I wanted your mind.

Four years later

And all I wish now is

That I didn’t want more

than a friendship with you.

I took you for granted

Pushed you away

But you always responded.

You always listened

When I struggled,

when I cried,

Even when I was lonely

I miss you before

All the drama.

Before the growing years

When the innocence of

Arguments over the

Beastie Boys was

A primary focus.

The time when

I was oblivious

To your flirtations

In order

To protect your current

Precarious relationship

It was when you mentioned

Falling in love with

A comical air

That I knew I was

never going to be

The one crossing your mind


Alexandra Beitia is a student-athlete at UC Davis competing for the cross country team and studying Gender, Sexuality, and Women’s Studies. She spends a lot of time with her family, her puppy Winston, and drinking ubiquitous amounts of coffee.


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