Leaves that flew away from our hands
crumble in my mind like sand.
Smiles and twirls of the curls in your hair
turn dark and grey the longer I stare.
The riverbank where we always trailed along
has now, like you, dried up and gone.
My hand upon your soft, warm chest
reminds me now of bitterness.
The I love yous we murmured each day
has me wishing they will go away.
Can I forget those days? Can I forget our time?
never, because I’m on rewind.
Hayden Robinson is an autistic English writer and poet. His works focus heavily on neurodivergent experiences, finding humanity in a careless world, and overcoming trauma. His works can be found in various publications such as Diverse Verse 3, Poetic Vision, Under the Fable and Mothmaw Anthology. In 2023, he had a short story and an article published in Re-Route Art Magazine, and he had poetry published in Issue 1 of HNDL Magazine. Currently, he is writing two horror novels - one about vampires in Aberystwyth, Wales, and the other about an autistic girl trapped in a house filled with living dolls. He is also writing and updating a Worst Witch fanfiction ‘Hubble-Hallow’ on the website Archive of Our Own and on his social media accounts. He currently resides in Decatur, GA with his wife and two cats.